Saturday, July 30, 2005

1st BBQ in Australia...

yeahz! i had my 1st BBQ session in Australia. wow! they dun use charcoal here and is using electric pan. quite clean as in no need charcoal but is quite troublesome as we need constantly ensure that the switch is ON. had fun cooking... haha... moreover the weather is so so cool. no prespiration at all... not like in spore, after BBQ, i stink and smell like BBQ food lor...

i did the marinating for the chicken & the response was good. so not too bad after all. yeahz! James was the main chef of the BBQ & his cooking skill really not too bad. after which all of us take turns. however i din eat much cos not too feeling too well last nite & tis morning. still i cannot resist the food & ate quite a lot. haha... (now sore thorat liao...)

today was a surprise birthday party for Amy, my new fren from Korea. she was surprise & very touched by wat we did. oso the card and present we gave her. haha... the card was specially made by me. yeahz! comments was good when they all see the card. haha... my effort paid off after all... yeahz!

overall, today outing was fun and great. sch already started but still we muz enjoy in between breaks esp when is only starting. from next week on... muz work real hard as there r so many assignments due. oh my gosh... haiz...

imagine, 3000 words essay... abt 6 to 8 pages. can die sia... but no worries! i will endure and go thru it with faith! yeahz!

Sunday, July 24, 2005

2 weeks in Australia...

it had been 2 weeks since i arrived in Brisbane, Australia. how time flies... tomolo sch will be starting officially and it will be a hectic time for everyone as it is the 1st week and 1st semester... dunno how the system goes and everything had to be learnt from scratch. well, at least i noe i wun be alone as i noe there r pple around me to assist me and guide me along too. heehee.. :)

before sch officially starts, of cos i muz enjoyed myself 1st. yesterday, 23 July was the most fruitful day i had ever since i arrived in Brisbane. We had a long long day of fun from morning 9am to night 10pm. In the morning, we (me, Joyce, Felicia, Tess, Philip and Cardy) went to LONE PINE KOALA SANCTUARY. it was abt an hr journey from sch to LONE PINE. we had to change 1 bus and the waiting time was abt 20mins. while waiting, we took some photos of the street of Brisbane early in the morning. haha... it was clear blue sky tat is so so pleasant.

when we reached LONE PINE, bought the entrance tickets, enter the sanctuary, gosh... it started to drizzle. is juz not our day when it start to rain. but thank god... the rain stopped after a while so we can continued journey. we went to sheep dog show before proceeding to see the animals. there were kangaroos, wombats, white wolves, tasmania devil, birds, parrots & not forgetting the most important one... KOALAS! yeahz! there were many many Koalas around... however all of them were soundly asleep under such fine weather and cool environment. diff types of Koalas are placed in different areas. there were an area which i like most... tat is the Koala Retirement Area... haha... all the koalas there r soundly asleep... heehee... there were a cuddling area where pple can hug the koala and take photo. & tat cost A$15. in the end, only Cardy took the picture. haha... the photo was nice cos the Koala was very cute (not Cardy tat is cute lor... haha) everyone's comment on the photo was tat they have father & son look.. haha.. gosh...

after the sanctuary, we took a bus to city.. another abt half an hr ride to city to have our lunch. finally after 2 weeks, i had noodles! is not pasta, is real chinese noodles. i ordered Char Siew Noodles, tinking is like our spore wanton noodles... to my surprise tis Char Siew Noodles was like grandma's fried noodles plus some big pieces of Char Siew. well, not too bad after all, at least i can eat something different from college's western food. it as costly though... abt A$9... so cannot eat out unnecessarily. haiz...

then we went to walk around Southbank and took a Citycat Ferry from starting point to end point. as we bought a concession ticket tat allow us to take unlimited bus, ferry and train rides for 1 whole day, so y not? haha... we enjoyed the scenary around Brisbane River and it was damn cold sia! after abt 1 and half a hr, we went to Botanic Garden to join the rest (Leona, Huiying, Amy, Chris, Nozomi & some IH pple) for the outdoor concert cum fireworks. we watched the concert and it was rather enjoyable with different type of music. there were music by local bands, local ochestra and local choirs. the 2 items i enjoyed most were the scottish band and The Strike from New Zealand. it was simple marvellous and cool... yeahz! the grand finale was full of impact and the ending was a series of fireworks. there were so beautiful and bright... reminds me of Spore's fireworks... haha... we went specially to watch the fireworks. so we had such enjoyable time... wowing here and there... haha...

it was a long long day... we really were all tired out... we took a city cat ferry back and by the time we r back to college, it is already abt 10pm. gosh... tat is so so late... haha... though we r tired, we had fun. cos we really did quite a lot of tings and took so many photos... wow! (stay tuned to my yahoo photo album for the photos... yeahz!)

alright... back to now... i got to start sch tomolo and prepare for a challenging and interesting studying life ahead. my aim is there and i will remind myself tat i will try my best to achieve it. yeahz!

okok... to all my dear dear family and frens in spore, i am very FINE in brisbane... pls take good care of urself back home and i will keep all of ya update abt myself every now and then. till then, see ya and take care! love and miss all of ya... :)

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

departure for Brisbane... all my tots and happenings

yeahz! tis is my 1st blog since i arrived in Australia. i juz had my internet set up yesterday so i am trying to get all the admin stuff done asap. hopefully i can sign up for my course as soon as by tis week.

anyway, too much to say so shall slowly start off from the day i left, Sat, 9 Jul 2005. i was taking the nite flight of QF52 from SIN to Brisbane. when i set off for airport, it was almost abt 6.30pm. before i reached, i received call from Pat tat she reached airport liao... aiyo, she more KS than me ah... haha... anyway, when i reached, it was just nice for check in. crossing my fingers for the luggage tat exceed weight limit, i went to the counter and check in. i looked at all the counter staff and all seems ok ok... so i juz went to 1 counter and act frenly and pitiful. then when i place my luggage on the weighting machine, haha.... it was 33kg! but she din mention anything abt exceed weight limit and i went thru! yeahz!

after check in, my frens arrived. jun and lin was 1st 2 to be there. as usual, lian was late... haha... when i saw them i was so so happy cos i noe at least got pple send me off ah... haha... then soon phone rang and msg came in and blah blah.... before i reached airport, i was msging fang & in my mind, i juz hope she will come to send me off oso. then after a while, my mentoring buddies, Audrey, Fiona, Seh Inn, Wee Keong came. it was very nice of them to come and sent me off. i was very pleased to see them.

then after tat a call came to ask me where i was. i ans tat person not knowing who he is ah. u see, how blur i can get sia.... then soon all my family (dad and mum's side) all arrived. happy family photo taken and is like big big gathering. everyone was commenting how come my hand carrier so big... haha... they nv see my check in luggage, they will faint sia... then after tat, pat and san san arrived. yeahz! very happy to see them & i was very touched by their present. it was a photo album photos i taken with each of them. they r so good and kind to do it for me. (PS: poly 2B26 frens, THANK U for the photo album (esp thanks to PAT ah...) i really love it and is 1 of my best companion for my stay in Aust now!)

then phone rang, it was fang! haha... she is really in the airport. i went over to meet her. then we spoke for a while. she passed me a card then as we tok, gosh.. she cried. she was hugging me and cried. making me wanna cry too. i keep telling myself to be strong and cannot cry so whoever i see, i act tough... heehee... i not bad leh, i did it ok! i was really very very happy to see fang and is at least before i leave for aust. yeahz!!!!! she gave me a letter of msg which i told her i will read on plane cos if not i sure cry on the spot. after saying "bye bye" to her (very unwillingly bye bye ah...), i went back to my other frens and took some photos here and there. msg keep coming in but i nv reply or read cos i scare i cry. pple gave me cards and i oso nv read cos i scare i cry. fiona gave me mashmallows but i can't bring along so i asked aunt to bring home. but still i appreciate a lot!!! (PS: mentoring buddies, thank u for coming... will always rem the fond memories we had together! yeahz!)

then lian came. she came with a photo card. haha... i saw lin and jun signing it but i nv go disturb lah. i very good one. so i juz tok to baolai and chee wei who oso came. so glad to see them. i din tell baolai i was leaving but he say beng hwa told him. then beng hwa oso called me cos he say he is sick, cannot come down. he oso said tat he tried very hard to ask Chee kiong to come down but Chee kiong cannot make it on time. nvm lah... is ok. cos Chee kiong called me to tell me tat he can't come and wish me all the best. it was kind of him but i noe all these feelings are so diff and is no longer wat i wanna liao...

anyway, when the photo card was done, lian and all wanna pass to me but i keep running here and there. haha... until they oso very irritated liao. so quickly before i go in, i stood before them and see the card. it was a very nicely done card and i am so so so touched!!! got msg in it, i oso nv read until i board plane. (PS: my spice buddies, i am very very touched by tat card. 1 of my best companion here too! u guys played an impt part in my life so when i am aust, i will continue to miss all of u and tink of u all & pray for all ur well being...)

before i went in, alot of msg came in. msg from jasmin, shuwei, shupei, shiying, jenny, hafeez, zhirong, hui... hafeez even called me in the afternoon to wish me all the best. it was his bday party tat day ah... haha... so kind of him. (PS: thanks, guy! is so nice of u to call)

when is finally time to go in, i took all my bags. all 3 of them, so heavy ah... carry a back pack, carry a sling bag and hold on to a laptop bag. i bid all of them goodbye. hug every single of my gal frens who came and then said thank u to all of them and say GOODBYE to them for last time and unwillingly went in the custom. i din cried lor... i was strong and tough. i din wan to let them worry so i promise not to cry means cannot cry. i did it ah! yeahz!

when i was at the boarding area, i was so scared cannot go thru. cos bags like too big lor. then when i finally clear of the custom area and waiting at transit area, i was so so glad. haha... i went thru ah!!! yeahz!!! then at the transit area, i called aunt to tell her i went thru. then i was a bit on the crying verge but i din break down. i was tough, wasn't i? haha...

i board the plane clumsily with all my bags and then when i was sitted at the seat, very ma fan cos i cannot keep my laptop under the chair in front. too big ah... tried for a while before i get tings organised and then wait patiently for plane to take off. i saw the viewing gallery full of pple. i can sense tat my family r there (yeah! i am rite... my cousin told me tat she was there with my auntie... haha). finally i cannot tahan and tears rolled down my cheeks. the 1st tear came down and it juz continue like running tap. din noe wat to do to stop juz try not let others see, esp the one next to me see. anyway, after a while, i was ok cos they serving supper ah... so paiseh if they see... after supper, i took out all cards and msg to read. once again, cannot tahan, tears roll down again. i cannot control ah...i cry until i tired and slept. but when the light went off, i woke up after a while, then i start outside the plane, saw stars... then i feel the loneliness and tears rolled down again... it was a very painful airplane ride where i din enjoy any of the online entertainment and was so uneasy all the while. then cry until tired, slept a while before i saw the sun rise which means reaching very soon....

when i reached brisbane, it was very very cold... i wore my jacket straight. when i was waiting for luggage, i keep planning how to carry so many items with my 2 hands. then slowly i manage to get the luggage down from the conveyor belt and finally into the custom clearance area. when i finally clear from the custom, i was so happy cos they din check my bags. haha... finally i was in Brisbane! yeahz!!! waited a while for all to arrive before we set off for our respective lodging places. when i reached Union College, my hostel... a bit of problem as they cannot find my key to my room but after a while it was ok. the weather was very cold and windy... when i got up to my room, it was rather small room but still ok. it was at a very far end unit with no one in the block yet... sad... but i have no worries cos i noe soon more pple will move in... hehe... so there i am start to unpack my stuff and prepare my room for cosy stay... yeahz!!!

shall continue tomolo as is time for sleeping now...

... to be continued...

Saturday, July 09, 2005

today is an IMPORTANT day!!!! :)

finally is the BIG day!!! yeahz!!! haha... dun misunderstand ah... (already got pple ask me if my BIG day is referring to marriage... haha...) my BIG day is referring to me leaving for Aust for studies. in abt 10hrs time, i will be on board QF52 flying off to Brisbane for my further studies @ Uni of Queensland for 2 yrs. heehee... now my feeling is full of anixety, worries & 不舍。。。

last nite i was so excited that i din sleep until abt 4am in the morning. i am tired... my eyes r closing but i juz dun wan to sleep cos i wanna enjoy the peace of my HOME. looking @ my family members who r soundly asleep, tis is my last chance to look @ them which i am going to miss it for 2 yrs... no matter how long i had been staying @ HOME for the last few mths, is really dun seems enough. i have so much sad feelings abt leaving... last nite, my bro cooked supper for me. come to tink, it had been such a long while since he last cooked for me. last time we will eat supper together where he cooked, i washed dishes or i cooked, he washed dishes. haha... last nite the noodles was OKAY only but is "tasty" as in is full of warmth & care. (PS: bro, 谢谢你的面,真得很好吃!though mine is better lah... haha...)

had some last min packing to do last nite as luggage still overweight. later i need pray hard tat i meet kind custom & check in officers where they will take pity on me and let me pass with all my BIG BIG & overweight luggages. haha... *pls pls ah...* =pray hard hard, cross my fingers**= & for items to be sent over, need @ least 2 boxes of 20kg ah... cost abt 400bucks ah... die ah... so exp... haiz...

anyway, soon my cousins, uncle and auntie will be coming. muz enjoy last few moments with all of them & my dearest BEE BEE (it is doing some sun tanning now... haha... so tat i can keep it in my cupboard... hee...) then will leave for airport @ abt 6pm. quite a few of my frens wun be able to go for instance: Jas, Edwin, Wen Hui, Shuwei, Waileng... well, is ok cos i still have others & i noe they will miss me still... heehee...

PS: anyway, i juz wanna tell everyone out there, PLS take good care of urself & it will take me a longer while to online again cos need time to configure my network to local settings & alot of preparation & unpacking to do when i reach there. will see ya online in abt 2 to 3 weeks time! yeahz! see ya... take good care...

*0 day to the BIG day! today is the BIG day!

Friday, July 08, 2005

i like my new hair cut!!! is so studious & refreshing looking... haha...

heehee... i did a few tings tis afternoon. is all abt personal grooming...

first of all, i went to Far East Plaza for eyebrow trimming. hmm.. asked the lady to trim it thinner for me as i dun wan it to grow too fast until like a patch of grass on my face... haha... cos when i am in aust, i oso dunno where to find cheap eyebrow trimming. okok.. do some advertisement here 1st. it was my frenz who intro tat eyebrow trimming shop to me & i had been going back there cos is quite cheap as compared to outside & the skill not bad... (u take a look @ my eyebrow lah... then u will noe how good their skills r... heehee... is only 6bucks lor... isn't it cheap? lian told me the shop next to it oso 6bucks... haha... anyway, for those who dunno which shop i am referring to, is JS Beauty Paragdiam @ Far East Plaza Level 4)

after eyebrow trimming, i went for a hair cut. i wanna cut my hair short so tat it wun grow too fast when i am in Aust. then when the stylist asked me if i juz wanna trimming, i told her i wanna it short. so she suggested it to be cut to a length tat is slightly below my ear if not my big round face will look BIG with shorter hair length. guess tat was my initial idea oso... heehee.. so there she is, start to cut. i like the way she cut my hair... cos i wanna to layer my hair, so the way she cut my hair is like sloping down way of cutting, giving my hair a bit of freezy feeling. i oso did the hair coloring to cover my white hair... did the treatment for the hair color... as usual i took the package & tis time i got the membership card. 10% off on weekends & 20% on weekdays. haha... y i wanna it when i am leaving for Aust, rite? well, my family can use mah... haha... ohhh... forget to mention which salon i went to. Yeahz! is the KIMAGE @ Toa Payoh. i like their service there & the pple there r quite frenly. skill not bad oso. esp my stylist today, i quite like her. usually i dun specify a stylist when i go. next time, i shall specify tat i wanna her ah... (hmmm... tat will be at least 1 or 2 yrs later ba...)

oso haven't say whether i like my new hair style ornot... hee hee... of cos i like it! @ 1st when i look in the mirror, a bit dun like cos is like weird weird one... then when she combed properly for me, heehee... i am in love with my new hair style. it make me look studious ah... i feel so light in tis hair style and refreshing... overall, 100 points for my hair style cos i like it! color oso ok as white hair is gone... no need so obvious to pple i color my hair but as long as white hair is gone, then ok lah... haha...

with tis new look of hair style, i shall set off for Australia tomolo! yeahz! certainly look forward though there r some feelings of 不舍得... :(

last nite in spore... my dear & HOME SWEET HOME...

last nite in Spore, wat shall i do? hmmm... i juz wanna stay home & close to my family to enjoy the last bit of feeling of HOME. maybe if bro is home, i will ask him wanna go KTV or not... haha...

Parting is always a sad feeling... it is nv an easy task to accomplish. be it whether it is life & death parting, temp parting to leave home or watever, it is always the most painful feeling to leave ur LOVED ONES... i deeply and really feel tis kind of feeling in my heart now.

for the past 1 week, it had been an emotional challenge for me. i had to bear with the feeling of parting and endure with tat pain tat is constantly piercing in my heart. tis is the last nite i am spending in Spore, my home... though i had been a couch potato @ HOME for the past few mths, i still have the 依依不舍 feelings & in my heart, it is already having tears rolling down... i dunno how long i can hold back my tears (i already cried a few times when i was blogging...). not yet in front of my LOVED ONES tat i cried. i am trying to hold back as i dun wan tis whole ting to turn out be an emotional and tearful one. is suppose to be a happy ting as tis is such a great opportunity.

parting is part & parcel of life... it is something which we all have to face & bear with it. i will have to put up with the pain of parting with my HOME, parting with my FAMILY, parting with my FRIENDS, parting with my beloved SINGAPORE. it is not going to be easy... but i noe i will try my best to be strong and tough so as not to let those who love me worry for me. it was until today then i noe there r so many pple who love and dote on me & i muz learn to treasure and cherish all these. 我是幸福的!!! 我真的很幸福!!! 我很满足了!!!

*1 more day to the BIG day!

14yrs of frenship... i really wanna 感谢 my pri sch frens...

14yrs of friendship... wow! it is such a long period... it is more than a decade... i am very very glad i am still in close contact with tis batch of friends whom i noe since Pri Sch. they had been the best & longest buddies i ever can have.

there was a period of time, i tried to keep away from them as i din noe how to face them when we r living in different environment & tat most of them r in prestigious Sec Sch while i am in a neighbourhood sch. however, i was wrong. they r still my frens no matter wat & they r still always ever ready for me when i am rather distance from them. i can always feel their warmth and concern. i was angry with myself for tinking bad abt how they will treat me when we r in diff Sec Sch.

thru out the yrs, our lifestyle changed & we r busy with our own tings. we seldom have time to meet up & soon we r drifted apart. however, frens r for life. we may not have the most common topics on earth to tok abt & we may not have the full understanding of each other, we r still the best friends to be staying close together forever. when we get together, we will tink back of the times when we r still in pri sch & how carefree life had been & share with each other wat we r doing now & wat we look forward in future. in our heart, we care for one another. we r not those who constantly meet up but we nv fail to disappoint anyone when it comes to once a yr gathering (i am apologise 1st... my absence in tis 2 yrs will make me unable to attend the gathering during CNY liao...). no matter wat i am glad tat i came across such wonderful buddies from pri sch.

to all my pri sch frens: thanks for playing a part in my life. it is the most carefree period in my life which i deeply appreciated. we had fun together & we been thru sad moments. u will always be the best part of memories when i tink back abt the past.

to Yunci, Xinxian & Jasmine: thanks for the farewell dinner @ Crystal Jade (to tink we can sit there from 7pm to 10pm... haha...) u r the best best buddies in pri sch i ever can have. really feel so glad tat u all r still here for me after so many yrs. rest assured! yrs down the road, we will still be in close contact and we can spend another 3 hrs @ Crystal Jade when i come back. haha... our frenship will carry on for another 14yrs and more & more...

to Waileng: i tink i have state watever i wanna say abt u in ur testimonial. all i wanna say is tat i really wanna THANK U for being my fren and always there for me. oso to thank u for giving me a chance to be ur fren. i will look forward to u & ur bf 's visit to Aust at tis yr end. i will be a good host! heehee... :)

take good care ah, my dear friends from WPS Pri 6A'1996 (",)

绝对Superstar - route to semi-final is tough sia!!!

sad... sad... :(

juz saw 绝对Superstar... HE WEIJIAN is out of the competition. i feel sad for him ah... he is a good singer & his voice is really very good, got potential and room for grooming ah... haiz... juz too bad tat he is OUT liao... but competition is tough and cruel... surely got winner and loser, unfortunately it is WEIJIAN. haiz... however there is another round of REVIVAL round. so i really hope that WEIJIAN will treasure tis chance & do his very very best & fight for the chance to enter to semi-finals. i cannot continue to watch & support him but i definitely will continue to pray for him... heehee... moreover he is my junior from NP mah... ha...

happy... happy... :)

HONG JUNYANG is IN!!! yeahz! he is in the semi-finals. wow! tat's simply great & i feel so happy for him. his voice is elastic too... can have various changes & he is trying to build his style. he muz continue to do his best & soon everyone will realise his potential & X-factor for SUPERSTAR! yeahz! can't watch his performance anymore but certainly hope he can go further and pray hard for him too! heehee...

Thursday, July 07, 2005

Happy & Unhappy... mixed feelings...

got 2 happy tings & 1 sad ting to share... share the happy ones 1st...

firstly, the host city for 2012 Olympic is finally out!!! yeahz!!! London won ah~~~!!!! so it will be London 2012...yeahz!!! so good & wonderful. i saw London & New York's presentations on TV tis morning. was very impressed by New York's presentation as their slides were very well done & impressive. & can see tat lots of work had been put in. then when it come to London, i was more touched than impressed. their presentation indicate the passion of Olympic & spirit Olympic... in their presentation & videos, i saw hopes tat all athletes will look forward since young. it is an undying Olympic spirit tat unite pple all over the world & a spirit tat everyone will hope for since young. it symbolise HOPE, PASSION & SPIRIT. quite touching after watching it. so i was glad tat they won...

oso since London won, i have another target in mind liao... heehee... i wanna go to London & travel around the place so so much... & i wanna watch Olympic if i ever have the chance. so since 2012 Olympic in London, it became my goal and wish to go to London 7 yrs later for Olympic as well as to visit London. yeahz!!! will try hard to make my wish come true. hopefully i can do it ah!!! heehee... London 2012, i certainly hope to see u 7yrs later!!!

secondly, it is abt 绝对Superstar. yeahz!!! Hong Junyang & He Weijian performed today. lucky ah... at least i still can watch their performances before i leave. heehee... today both of them look so different. boy-next-door image a bit changed ah... esp for Hong Junyang... he got a bit of his moustache on his face, change his dressing & so tat he look more manly overall. & most of all, he sang my favourite song, "Jie Kou" by Jay Chou!!! heehee... his voice was good (of cos his pronounciation is better than Jay lah... ha...). judges gave him very positive comments and i was so happy for him... his points was the highest for today! heehee... *pray hard tat he will make it thru ah...* (oso pray tat curse of highest score dun get in wun fall on him...)

another one is He Weijian. hmm... he change a bit too. though tat jacket as wat judges said, is over size for him ah... he too skinny lah... haha... but i like his singing so much. always so smoothing for ear... & tink he likes Fan Yi Chen's songs ah... last week sang his song, tis time oso his song.. haha... best sia! *oso pray tat he gets in*

lastly, the sad ting is i CANNOT bring a very very important thing with me over to aust. haiz... is something i cannot leave without ah... & whenever i study, i need it by my side. i will confine to tat ting whenever i am sad ah... haiz... my bro always say shld install a detector in tat ting so tat he can listen to my secrets... haha... for those who noe me ah, u all shld noe who i am referring to. yep! it is my beloved and precious BEE BEE. a rabbit tat had been with me for the past 17 yrs. i will really miss it when i go to aust. it had been my best best fren... haiz... i told other pple i will bring it over but after second tot, better not. cos for stuffed animals, i need declare at the custom & if the custom officers see its color, they sure faint ah. & may even confiscate my BEE BEE. so in order not to risk its life, i decide to leave it at home... is a painful decision ah... maybe u will me childish and strange ah. y get so upset by a stuffed toy? haiz.. tis stuffed toy is very different. it had been with me for so many yrs... is my bday gift & i really treasure it and treat it as my FREN. even when it is so dirty and smelly tat pple ask me throw away, i oso nv bear to cos to me, it is my FREN. how can i throw a FREN away, rite? haha... dun tink i am crazy or wat... i juz treasure my tings alot... anyway, though i can't bring it over, i still have its photos for viewing... heehee... "BEE BEE, i am going to miss u so so much... juz as much as i miss my family & frens..."

*2 more days to the BIG day!

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

BGR relationship need alot of maintainance, effort & time...

hmm... heard of a sad case of break up again... & tis story of breaking up reminds me of wat happen abt 2 yrs ago. story is the same ah... but in order not to remind anyone of the sad happening, i shall not elaborate the story.

"a relationship only involve 2 pple." usually pple can very "xiao sa" to say tat & y shld they care abt pple's views, as long as they r happy with each other, wat else can be bothering them. however, we cannot deny tat pple's words and views does matter. u can very happily say i dun care how pple look at our relationship & i dun need pple approval or watever. it is between me and my partner, wat does other pple know & y shld they care so much? however, when pple say such comments, do they really mean tat? can they really dun care & tink of pple's views and words? ans is usually they cannot. esp when tings such as break up happen.

in a break up, we often do not know wat is the real reason as we r not the couple involve. for some pple who sort of know the reasons, they may understand. but for some who dunno anything, their comments r the worst man! they can say anything they tink is rite, they can say anything tat they tink is true & they dun understand anything abt the whole issue but juz like give comments. cannot blame pple oso cos tis is human nature of being nosy and full of comments (i would not say tat i am a saint, cos i am such nosy person who like to comment too...) often all these ignorance comments by all these pple r very very hurting & painful. i once had a fren who is so hurt by all these comments tat his close frens said & felt so depressed ah. haiz... & i had seen quite a few cases. usually guys r the one kanna scoldings & criticism when a break up involve. y is tat so? pple usually show pity for gals but how abt the guys? at some situations, both r at fault. or some cases, the guy is innocent. in some cases guys r really the idiot one lah... but no matter wat is the reason, guys still have to be the poor ting one. life is unfair sia... juz becos gals seems the weak one, then guys muz be blame for watever happen. i am not siding the guys (i am a gal lor... i shld fight for gals ah...), juz tat i feel unfair for the guys.

when break up involve, something bound to goes wrong with both side. if not, how come will break up leh. so it is not entirely fault on the guy or the gal. a relationship need both of them to maintain. if it end up in a failure and result in break up, both muz be responsible. no such ting as pin point is the guy's fault or is the gal's fault. even if it is 1 party's fault, then wat is the reason for tis fault leh? was it becos neglience of both parties? was it becos it was a wrong start at the beginning? was it becos there is no communication in both parties or was it becos there is no initative from both sides?

haiz... having relationship is nv an easy job lor... need so much maintainance and time & effort (seems familiar words ah... heehee... copy from my previous few entry abt frenship). if u r willing to give in time & effort, then u can start a relationship. if not, dun start one & then regret or wat. but still love is unpredictable. anyting could happen anytime & anywhere no matter how stable tings go... so i would tink is better to treasure wat u have now & be contented and learn to enjoy it. dun ever regret when u lose it ah...

*3 more days to the BIG day!

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

i like to be part of organising MAJOR events...

this evening, the Internation Olympic Committee (IOC) meeting will be officially open! yeahz!!! finally ah... after so many months of preparation, everyone had been looking forward to it. everyone is excited abt the result as to who will be the host country for 2012 Olympic Games. will it be Paris 2012, London 2012, Madrid 2012, Moscow 2012 or New York 2012??? we will noe it by tomolo evening. Yeahz!!!

tis few weeks, news & newspapers had been having so many reports abt this whole meeting. & for tis few days, City Hall area r so crowded. crowded with the normal working crowd, the IOC officials & their families as well as our Police force! they can be seen almost everywher near to the Raffles city area. last evening i was at city hall mrt & guess wat. i saw 6 policeman standing at the entrance of the control station. on sat when i was at tat area, i saw a grp of abt 10 over policeman standing guard. wow! the security is so so tight...oso no choice lah, cos tis is considered as a grand event. so many big shots r in town now. for instance, Tony Blair, David Beckham (yeahz!!!) & some impt politicans from the 5 countries. if i am any terrorist (i am saying if i am lah... but i am NOT of cos!!!), i will choose tis place, tis timing ah...

tomolo we will noe who is the host country for the 2012 Olympic Games ah! yeahz! i love watching all these sports event. be it Sea Games, Commonwealth Games, Aisa Games, Olympic Games, i like to watch & get excited by the various races and games. spore may not be a strong country as compared but still is always very fulfilling seeing the sports pple from my own country fighting for the glory and championship. even they lose, the spirit r still remarkable. bravo to them!!! yeahz!!!

it had been since a while since spore last host any major games (spore can only afford to host Sea Games kind of games as we have limited land and resources). in order to host such grand events, i would tink a lot alot of money, effort, pple and resources r needed. esp when it need to accomodate for more than 1000 pple from various countries. it is definitely not going to be easy ah! act i have a small wish. i wish tat i can be involve in the organising of such sports event. small or big, i seriously dun mind. i wanna experience how r tings like during all these events. next yr, commonwealth games will be in Melbourne! yeahz! how i wish i can go down & take a look or even find a part time job there... as ball picker or run errands... heehee... at least i can see how it is like ah...

back in spore, i oso have another wish. it is for my country's bday! yeahz! i wanna be involve in the NDP parade organising. but i noe all along NDP r taken care of by our SAF pple. haiz.. maybe when i come back from Aust, they have new ruling and open up such organising to outsiders.. i certainly look forward ah...

haha... guess all these r in born in me tat i like organise events. & tat is y i wanna go study event management. hopefully i can utilise wat i learn in my future job. yeahz!!!

*4 more days to the BIG day!

Monday, July 04, 2005

to my dearest poly frenz from 2B26... 谢谢!!!

juz went for a dinner gathering with my poly frenz... is a farewell dinner for me. haha... they r so nice to treat me to dinner ah... (if i noe earlier, i order something more exp ah... hahaha... *kidding*). BIG thank u to them! we had our dinner @ NYDC suntec & the mudpie was simply DELICIOUS!!! yeahz!

i had known tis grp of frenz from NP for almost 4yrs... they had been my best pals in poly even when we went to diff classes in yr 3, we r still on good terms and ongoing contact. we went thru moments of happines, laughter and difficulties (mainly during tests, projects & examz...) together with them, my life in poly had always been so wonderful and full of fun. fond memories where everyone of us actually play a part in. bday celebrations, celebrations after major projects, celebrations after examz... i will definitely miss all these so so much... after graduation last yr, everyone had been busy working. life is very much diff from studying life but still we r in contact. something which i am very pleased abt as such good frens r not easy to come by...

wee wee's note to my poly frenz from 2B26: together with all of u, we had alot of fun and fond memories. something so pleasant tat i will nv forget. late hrs of KTV sessions & suppers r always so enjoyable with u guys around. my poly life will be so different with u guys. really wanna THANK U for everything!!!

wee wee's note specially for my dearest SAN SAN: haha... wonder r u reading ah??? but nvm lah, juz write 1st. thank u for always tolerating my nonsense & when i always suan u, u nv scold me or get angry ah... haha... take good care of urself, k? drop me a msg every now & then... i will reply one... will definitely miss u & pat alot (esp the times when we go out for shopping & i will wait for u 2 outside the toilet... ahah). if u have any prob, feel free to look for pat too.. she very free one... haha...

wee wee's note specially for my dearest PAT PAT: i noe u will be reading... heehee.. u had been the most wonderful fren i ever can have. always so understanding and noe me so well. i really appreciate tat very much! u muz take care of urself & be kind to urself ah... dun ill treat urself & u definitely deserve a better love life! any prob, can always msg me or email me. i am always ready to listen. if not, u look for san lah... she will be free ah... haha... will miss u & san alot...

big THANK U to my dearest family....

today is FAMILY day!!! 1 of the happiest family gathering i had as i met up with almost all my aunties, uncles and cousins. is really really great feeling. such gathering will only happen during special occassions like chinese new yr, weddings or birthdays. the last one we had was during my 21st bday earlier tis yr... now tis time is for.... my farewell lor.... haiz... kinda sad leh... * (emotional again... lian lor, aft reading her blog... tears rolled down... now affect my feeling for my blog entry... haha...)

tis afternoon i met up with my family for my father's side. we had a luxurious lunch @ Yong Chun Yuan. food was nice and there is alot alot... so much until really gota packet them home for dinner... haha... but all the dishes r delicious & so full ah!!! quite worth it ah... took some photos with my uncles, aunties and cousins. well, gota miss them so so much when i am in Aust as they had been the main support to help me endure along the way thru all kind of situations. when my little cousin, Weiqi came up to me to ask:" Weishan Jie Jie, how long will u be away? when will i see u again?" for a moment, i really dunno wat to say... i almost broke down into tears cos i really cannot bear to leave them & i will miss them so much. even before i left, i already feel tat sense of sadness. when she came to offer me half of her favourite fried bun, i really wanna hug her and cry. well, i hold back cos i noe i cannot get emotional @ tis time. i may have so much sadness to feel for, so much tears to drop for the fact i am leaving. i noe i cannot do it as it is not wat they wanna see in me. they wanna see me succeeding in my studies there. obtaining good results is definitely a better gift to them than seeing me cry & cry. how can i disappoint them & myself leh? heehee.. :)

dinner was another round of farewell @ my grandma's house. it was my mother's side of family. & my mother specially cook my fav curry chicken & pig stomach soup for me. everyone was present. they asked me if i am ready to go & how is my packing getting on. they said they will come & send me off next sat @ the airport. i am very touched to hear tat. even if they can't go next sat, i wun get angry either cos i can sense their care & concern for me. turn by turn, they gave me advices and reminders of tings i shld look out when i am there. i really wanna thank them. the same ting i wanna present to them will definitely be a set of good results when i come back. only way i can tink of to repay their kindess, care and concern.

dad, mum & bro din say anything much. well, usually we r a family of little words. our care & concern r usually shown thru actions unknowningly. in our heart, we noe we care for each other. though they din say much, i noe they care & i really feel so sad to leave them. i hate to say tat but i realy cannot bear to leave them... i miss dad, mum & bro so so much....

FAMILY played the most impt role in my life for the past 21 yrs. no matter is my parents, grandfather (who passed away when i was 11yrs old), grandmothers, brother, uncles, aunties or cousins. i wun be able to go thru all the various stages without their presence & support. when i am in aust, i will be alone. something i am so worried as i dunno whether i can survive without them. but i noe they wun wan to see me cry & get upset. they wanna see a happy me coming back with good results which every single one of them will be proud of! i will not disappoint them or myself. is a promise tat i made to them & myself before i go. with tat in heart, i would definitely be able to move on... definitely! :)

last of all, from deep down inside my heart, i wanna say a big big "THANK U" to every single of family & relatives!!!

*5 days more to the BIG day!

isn't SOCCER powerful???

have u ever wonder how much can a soccer ball do??? hmm... weird quest tat i asked, rite? well, i only had this quest yest & i found the ans yest too!

i was at the street soccer court, watching my bro & his frens playing soccer yest afternoon. (it had been abt 2 yrs since i last went to see them play... it is something i enjoyed doing since i was young. always around to watch my bro played soccer with his frens in our old neighbour in the past.) so yest i had the sudden urge to go down & watched. so there i am, standing by the side of the court, watching them & trying to "sham" all the balls tat fly towards my direction. gosh! their strength were so great and all the kicks tat they used was so strong tat i am really scared... scared tat the ball hit my face lor... dun laugh ah... i kanna a few times before. on my face and straight on my head lor... pain leh...

okok... back to topic. power of soccer. for the guys, everything is so simple. juz give them a soccer ball, there they r. no matter they noe each other or they r strangers, their gap will be closed up by tat SOCCER BALL. here r some points y soccer r so powerful...

POWER 1:
definitely is the closing up of gap between groups of guys who dunno each other initially & hit it off well juz by playing soccer. at the street soccer court, there r so many pple waiting to use the court to play. if u r selfish & juz wanna play with ur own pple, then too bad lor... however, i seldom see such cases among guys when they play soccer. no matter how old r u, from as young as 10 yrs to as old as 50plus yrs old, somehow they will arrange themselves & try to noe each other then without much hesitation, the game starts! & u nv noe ohh... some good frens juz hit off so well after a set of soccer game. from strangers to good frens, isn't soccer powerful?

POWER 2:
the closing up of gap between different races. yest @ the court, i saw a few grp of Chinese, a grp of Malays, a grp of Indians. wowo!!! multi racial leh... haha... there may be moments of displeased @ times but when it come to the soccer game, who cares! no matter wat skin color u r, yellow, black or brown... juz a soccer ball, everything is not impt. tis had been something i witness since young. cos back then in my old neighbourhood, my bro's khakis for soccer r mainly Malays. & my bro's best partner @ soccer court was a Malay guy. no discrimination, no differences where soccer game is concern... so isn't soccer powerful?

POWER 3:
different ages of guys will enjoy the game together. yest @ the court, i saw an uncle. he is almost in his 50s. he was playing pretty well. not losing out to any young punks @ the court. able to catch with them & score a few goals leh... he is not afraid of embrassessment & willing to join the youngsters for the game. likewise the youngsters r so willing to accept the uncle into the game. all becos they enjoyed the game soccer & will always be willing to enjoy it with pple who is into the game too. passion & enthusiasm, isn't soccer powerful?

POWER 4:
long term of frenship can be built up thru all these soccer games. i witnessed tat along the way for almost 12yrs. my bro & his bunch of frens from sec sch. it had been soccer game tat had keep their frenship going on & even bother to come out every Sun for a game or two. even when some of them dun stay near here, they r still willing to come down every Sun, without fail. tat is how guys can build and maintain their frenship. thru soccer games, thru moments of happiness in the games & thru all the sweats along the games. isn't soccer powerful?

if i say soccer ball is the Leading actor, then the guys involve in the games muz be the BEST supporting actors. guys r always so open with their actions & juz a simple game of soccer, they can make new frens. no hard feelings, no guessing, no worries, no hatred or maybe less of all of these. how come we gals cannot do it leh? i seriously tink tat in tis sense, gals will always lose out to guys. not tat i say gals cannot have long lasting frenship. but juz tat maybe by nature, gals r more narrow minded and petty, it is pretty hard for gals to hit off in tis way. thus i realy admire the guys for tis... (1 & only 1 case which i will admire the guys so much lor... haha...)

no matter it is watching soccer game, playing soccer game, guys r juz guys. most of them can juz hit it off well when such activities r involve! so isn't soccer powerful???

Sunday, July 03, 2005

谢谢大家!!!for 2/4'98 friends...

heehee... a surprise farewell dinner tat was not too successful in the surprise part BUT it definitely succeed in bringing tat little warmth from each of them to my heart... all these r juz so pleasant and wonderful...

yeahz! i juz had a farewell steamboat dinner with my frenz from AMKSS. it was so nice of all them to arrange for tis farewell for me. (oso muz specially thanks to Jas, my dear sister... coordinating everything. though the surprise was led out, i deeply appreciate the effort.) din had chance to chat with all of them which i am so sorry abt... but still i nv forget all of them. their presence is so impt and greatly appreciated! hee hee... the laughter we had esp during the Qian Bian Wen Da Ti session, is all so lame and funny... (hmm... i can have more quest to ask other pple liao... ohhoh...)

photo session @ City Hall area was great too! haha... all the funny funny pose and actions... (only my grp can be so "creative" lah... but poor jun, always got to scarifice for our innovative ideas... hahaha....) hmmm... juz a few photos but all very nice taken cos all the models in the photos R great and nice lor... ohohohoho... good for memories and remembrance...

cannot get too sentimental here... cos it is not like we r not going to see each other in future... but juz wanna use tis blog to say a few words to them.

to all my frenz from AMKSS 2/4 98: it had been a wonderful time whenever i am with u pple. we always have so much laughter and fun together. everyone of u r special to me in ur own way & will definitely be remembered in my heart no matter where i am. life for me will be so different if i had not met u pple... once again, i would like to show my deepest appreciation for every single one of u and being part of tis BIG family is something i am so proud of... i will miss all of u very much when i am in Australia...

to Lian, Jun, Lin & Jas: u r the BEST buddies i can ever have. always there for me thru all my ups and downs. we had fun, we had laughter, we had sorrows, we had tears together as a FAMILY, a PERFECT family... i wanna THANK U all for the support and concern all along in watever tings i do. i will definitely miss all u so badly when i am in Australia... miss Lian's blur & "auntie" way of toking & doing tings... miss Jun's "suaning"... miss Lin's lame & crappy jokes... miss Jas's generiousity and tolerance for my nonsense... haha... will u all miss me? heehee...

no matter where i am, u pple r always on my MIND and in my HEART... (mushy mushy... but tat's me mah... always so emotional... but dun make me cry ah...)

*6 more days to the BIG day!

Saturday, July 02, 2005

temp @ Brisbane will be as low as 7 degrees on 10Jul... gosh...

我的天啊!i juz checked the estimated weather forecast for Brisbane for the next 1 week till 10 Jul. aiyo... the temp for 10 Jul (day when i arrive) is 19 degrees (highest), 7 degrees (lowest)... average is abt 9 degrees... is so so damn cold... really scary sia... BUT lucky is sunny day... so maybe is better... hopefully i am strong enough to withstand the coldness... hmm...

it seems it is getting colder for tat whole week and whole mth of July. well, gota make sure i wear my jacket whenever i go out liao... and now i drinking vitamin C, hopefully can build up body resistance... haha... nvm, i tink i have enough body fats to fight coldness... heehee...

Friday, July 01, 2005

I am super 100% BROKE!!!!

wow! today i went to a few places to buy things and do tings... haiz... oso means i spend quite alot today ah...

morning i went for medical appointment @ National Skin Care Centre for my hair treatment (hair is thinning... aiyo..) got some medicine and shampoo.. wow! it cost me abt 120bucks ah! all these medicine really cost alot... i am so so broke after spending all my $$$ on them lor... haiz... hopefully is useful. the doctor said need to use for at least abt 6mths before i can see results. by end of tis yr i shld see the results good or bad... hmmm...

after National Skin care centre, i went to Guan Yin Temple to "bai bai". hmm.. for peace @ heart ba... pray for well being of myself when i am in Australia and well beings for my loved ones. did a small donation... wanna try "qiu qian" but decided not too cos is like so superstitious. anw, "qiu qian" is u believe means u believe, u dun believe means u dun believe. whether it is true or not, no one can be 100% sure abt it. but 1 ting for sure is tat sporean quite superstitious.. saw a lot of pple "qiu qian", quite a number youngsters too... well, even my dad is the superstitious lot.. he will go "qiu qian" too.. haha...

then went to Army market, Robinsons to buy some items. in all spend quite alot today ah.. haiz... bank account really running low ah... still need go cut hair. oh gosh! muz send a note out liao...

***Attention to all: for those who still owe ME $$$ for watever ting, can u pls pls pls return the $$$ to me ASAP before i leave for Australia? i dun like to chase after pple for $$$ but really ah.. tis time is i am super hard up for $$. if i dun get back the $$$, i tink i really cannot survive liao... juz saw the amt i owe my aunt for the studies. gosh! is in thousands lor... realy die liao... haiz...

** Self Declared tat I am super 100% BROKE!!!! **
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*8 Days to the BIG day!

绝对 Superstar... YEAHZ!!!

haha... 1st day of Juy!!! here i am with the 1st post for July...

is abt the 绝对Superstar show tat i watched juz now. hmm... was rather pleased with the results as out of the 4 pple who were out, i guess correctly 3 ah... haha... dun really like tat 3pple so was quite happy they r out... heehee... but got 1 of the guy who were out, i really feel so unfair for him... is tat William who had been kicked out. he had the highest score tat day & yet he is out.. in fact his point is 1 of the highest so far... haiz... life is so unfair... judges' scores only 30%, audience's sms support is 70% leh... maybe he lack of support, tat's y he is out. quite wasted cos his voice is good & he has tat confidence looks. haiz... act i feel tat having good voice is more impt... attractive looks can be done by packaging mah.. but good voice is hard to have and train lor... well, life is cruel ba..

haha.. but still happy ting is tat He Weijian is IN!!! yeahz! i like his voice lor... quite man man deep deep voice. i tell u all ah, esp the gals... he look damn charming and attractive when he sings and plays guitar or piano at the same time. saw it a few times in NP, was really attracted by his performance. he got FAN club in NP ah.. haha... glad tat he went in. though he is too boyish, no superstar X-factor, i still hope he can go thru as many stages as possible ah... haha...

oso congrats to Ian's friend, Xie Weicong... he has the build, height and looks. my aunt say he is those type of Korean actor style, you yu wang zi... haha... well, he got potential ba.. voice need more training though. still glad he is IN too! yeahz!

finally i found a gal to support. yeahz! she is tat F1 who perform in 2nd round of the contest. forget her name... (shall find out!) but rem she sang "jing chi". her voice is good, sweet looking face and the part i love most is her singing tactics. as far as i listen, most of the contestants' breathing is so loud when they sing. but she had good control. tat is quite hard to do it... her tactics is good & quite pei fu ah... way to go for her! hope she can go far.. she has tat looks and quality too.. can be those sweet looking style with room for wild and rebellious... haha...

not much chance to see superstar liao... muz enjoy my last 2 chances for the show next week... haiz... haha....

=at tis moment, i am obessed by tis superstar cos i like to listen to pple with good voice singing. i enjoy tat... yeahz!=