my laptop need a new MOTHER...

ohh... no... toshiba pple called up to say tat my laptop cannot boot up, becos the motherboard is damage.. aiyo... so sway ah.. i din used for more than 2 mths lor.. haiz... so poor ting.. hopefully after tis, my laptop will be okay.. in australia, it is so hard to locate a toshiba service centre. seeing their add, they r so far from where i am.. aiyo.. pray hard hard.. laptop dun spoil when i am there!!! pls pls... *pray hard hard*

as for my studies, after the accomodation confirmed... now is flights. going to check out my air tickets... hmm.. hopefully still got seats ah...

getting more and more prepared for the studies.. quite happy and excited abt it... yeahz! haha..

still need by luaggage bag, toiletries, stationary and lots more tings... hopefully can get tings done up asap... kinda look forward ohh...

my accomodation application is accepted!

Yeahz!!! i finally got my accomodation confirmation.. now i need to mail back the acceptance... cos there is some technical delay.. hopefully i am still in time to reply. thank GOD, manage to get the stay! as long as everyting goes smoothly.. i can finish most of my administrative work... look forward...

i am really glad tat i am born in spore... and i am a sporean... becos of tis fact... alot of tings can go rather smoothly... be it in watever aspect.. dun wan to elaborate liao.. cos rather sensitive..

anyway, i am very happy now.. in abt 2 mths time i can go over! yeahz!

my laptop & i r SICK... poor ting ah...

haiz... 2 tings tat so unhappy ah..

1stly, i am sick.. sore thorat plus flu... voice oso change liao.. feeling not too good abt it cos always like breathing difficulty. haiz.. hopefully next week can get well... wanna go sing KTV oso cannot ah.. haz..

2ndly, my new laptop oso sick ah... same as me... dunno wat sickness yet, but he is hospitalise liao.. next week then i can see him and noe his sickness... hopefully nutting serious and no need medicine... *pray hard tat my laptop is fine*

Friendship; Love Relationship...

hmm.. find it rather amazing.. and paiseh.. cos at my age, i still can be so emotional influence by the TV serials i watch.. haha.. i guess tis is my nature ba.. no matter how old i am, after watching a show, i will surely be influence by it at tat point in time.. anyway, juz wanna share the feeling of the show here..

title of show is Dou Yu.. well, is a Taiwan Ou Xiang Serial. had been on for quite a long time.. only now then me borrow the VCD from my fren to watch.. quite out dated lah.. but nvm. good show can be watch any time one lor.. hehe...

is a show abt frenship, love relationship, family kinship.. 3 impacts by the show after i watched.

1st impact: frenship
in the show, the 3 male leads r good buddies since young. and they had been so good tat they will always share everything together and will always be there for one another. i envy them cos in real life, tis kind of frenship is so hard to find and maintain.. or maybe i din meet up with such frenship ba.. i really envy them cos i always wanna have such frenship too... juz imagine how nice would it be to have a fren or 2 from young.. grow up with u. u and him/her can always be with 1 another at all times.. i longed for such frenship but unfortunately, i din meet up with it. act some pple can find tat kind of frenship but to me usually they r guys. juz like my bro.. he found a bunch of good buddies which 6 of them r the best buddies of all. they may not knew each since young, but their you qing is so so deep and firm.. i really envy my bro for tat. i oso wanna tat!!! i always tink tat becos i am a girl. usually between girls, such deep and transparent frenship r so hard to maintain.. pple say girls can communicate better but i tink likewise. i prefer guys' frenship, so pure, so firm and straightforward.. girls tend to be more narrow minded and petty abt many tings.. i have a gal fren. her 2 best buddies r guys ohh.. see, doesn't it explain itself tat guys' frenship is always more pure and simple?

2nd impact: love relationship
part A is abt Male Lead B giving up Female Lead A becos his best buddy, Male Lead A is in love with Female Lead A. is another wei da act.. silly but i can fully understand his feelings and pain.. is nv an easy job.. haiz... remind me of some unhappy moments.. but nutting lah.. hahaz..

part B is the love between Male Lead A and Female Lead A. typical love story where they went thru so much hardship before they can be together. but something unusual here is tat in tis show, i NEVER heard the word "so painful, then let's break up ba!" usually in the other shows, i will see tis once the couple have prob or quarrels. but here in tis show, no matter how hard tings had been, how painful they r, how terrible the situation goes, they NEVER abandon one another.. i really admire tat!!! i oso long for such marvellous love. a love tat NEVER say die easily, a love tat NEVER abandon each other so easily, a love tat can go thru all kind of pains and hardship.. but do such LOVE exist in real life? or shld i say i am over tat age to experience such LOVE? haha...

3rd impact: adapt to environment and change if necessary..
in the show, Female Lead A is a rich girl who is born in a good family where parents dote on her and she live a carefree life. however she chose to live a hard life with Male Lead A and from then change her life entirely. she is such a weak girl to be involve in such a harsh life and surrounding. but she nv give up and she din complain much abt the environment. she bravely face her decision and willing to change to adapt to her environment and new world.

in tis world, we all noe tis well enough. the world wun change for our sake, it wun stop becos we stop. if we can't adapt, we will lose out. but many pple always comlain tis and tat abt the place they r in.. they nv really put in effort to see how they can blend in. they only expect miracle to happen and change the environment to be their preferences. NO WAY! no way such miracle will happen... we all jolly well noe tis FACT but we always ignore and deny. haiz~~~ y lehz? esp sporean ah.. maybe our life juz too comfortable.. tis reminds me tat i am a sporean too.. will i be able to adapt and change according to environment when i reach Aust, juz as brave as the Female Lead A in the show or will i be typical pple, complaining and complaining & expect miracles? i always tink tat i have good adaption skills, do i really have? i will noe in a few mths time.. hehez..

after so much of feelings, i guess i have really digested the show ohh.. hahaz.. so much so tat i am addicted to the songs in the show.

hmm.. shows r acted and filmed becos there r similar situations everywhere; there r always reasons behind everything.. if not how scriptwriters come up with the stories for all the shows lehz? heeheez... haahaaz... :)

count down to the day i am leaving for UQ... 50 more days...

once again.. today my frens asked me when i am flying over to Australia... oh.. it is making me tink of it again and again ah.. haha... seems like time fly so so fast.. in abt 2 mths time i will be on my way to UQ to start my uni life..

going to leave my beloved family, my best buddies, my dearest hometown.. a place where i grew up, spend for my last 21 yrs here.. haiz.. no choice but to leave it for 2 yrs.. i will miss it alot but i noe i juz have to endure and 2 yrs will pass easily. loneliness is going to be difficult, i guess. i noe is nv easy when i am outside alone. without family and frens.. how sad tings can be.. BUT, hey! come on! who am i? i am wee san leh! i sure can make it one.. my frens say i am independent. i may not be as strong as i may seen to be but i wun get myself fall off easily.. surely can make it! yeahz!

jul.. my big day will be in jul.. haha.. look forward with hopes and happiness.. with some sadness cos leaving my home sweet home.. no matter wat, i still hope to go over ASAP... hehe... count down to the number of days.. if i wanna leave on 9 jul.. from now till then, exactly 50 days.. count down week by week.. :)

6 days Hong Kong trip... surely enjoying and exciting!

yeah! i am back from Hong Kong, my 6 days Hong Kong trip.. it was a tiring and "aching" trip yet an enjoyable and happy trip.

tiring becos there r so many places to go within 6 days and aching becos of all the walking... imagine 14 escalators up and 14 escalators up everyday from our residence at Mid-Levels.. ~~phew.. tough exercise ah.. everyday after our meals, we will do exercise by walking and walking... up slope and down slope.. non stop... haha.. no wonder Hong Kong pple so skinny.. they walk a lot to keep fit ah.. and admire them ah.. ladies can wear high heals to walk up and down steep slope, guys can wear jacket and suit to walk here and there.. so hot weather leh.. wow!!!

so many places of interests to go... we din go for all but at least we covered most of it.. we went to Ocean Park (din have enough time to play lor.. sad), Madame Tussand's @ the Peak, Wong Tai Sin Temple, Che Kung Temple, Big Buddha @ Lantau Island, Avenue of Stars... shopping everywhere... Ladies Street, Temple Street, Sportswear street, Time Square, SOGO... but items in Hong Kong r juz as exp as Spore's so i oso din buy much. juz tat we went to Espirit warehouse and i bought a jacket. the most exp present i bought for myself for tis trip. a bit guilty though... haiz...

i am amazed by a few tings in hong kong. 1stly, their transportation systems. their MTR is so accessible and it is rather well built. so wide area and is so deep underground.. so many levels down... considering all their island, at least main islands r connected to the famous outlying island. well done! 2ndly is the airport express train. it is so so convenient and moreover there is a pre-check in system for travelers to check in their language 1st @ the MTR in city so as not to rush.. isn't it more convenient, esp for business travelers? yeahz! 3rdly, is their service. so fast and more sincerity. when we go and eat, we r being served within 5mins after ordering of food, is so fast and no need to wait at all.. when we go to the shops, i can feel the sincerity in their services. they treat their customers in general. they dun differentiate their attitude towards locals or tourists. as long as they r customers... tis is someting i dun see in spore. cos spore service is rather slow... got to wait for more than 10mins to be serve in restaurants, got to tolerate those service attitudes.. haiz.. spore ah.. lost in tis way lor...

overall i enjoyed myself for the trip and i felt so happy to be able to complete my 1st overseas trip tat was planned totally by myself from start to end... along the way, i learnt a lot of tings and how impt tolerating and accomodating is. i love to plan my own trip and hopefully in future there will be more chance.. i dun mind going back to Hong Kong again.. but not so much for the shopping. i am not the shopping kind. i juz wanna learn and experience their lifestyle and environment...

successful trip! yeah! can gear up myself before i set off for studies in July liao... haha... :)

3 days in Hong Kong so far... 3 more days to go... hee hee...

yeahz!!! i am currently in Hong Kong! tis is my 3rd day here... there is a lot of walking to do in Hong Kong, from places to places, u need to walk and walk... up-slope, down slope... juz walk and walk... until now our legs r aching.. muscle very "suan"... haiz... haha...

walking becos of shopping too... hong kong really has alot of areas to shop... we r juz like one quarter thru.. and is like very tired of shopping.. 1st day when we go Causeway Bay.. we shopped at only 1 complex, is already very tiring.. then when we go 2nd one.. we r almost dead tired.. haha...

2nd day we went to Lantau Island to see the Big Buddha.. wow! to climb up all the steps to see the Buddha, is not an easy job.. is over 100 plus steps... climb until my legs turn "soft".. but the view and atmosphere up on the top was very very nice.. good view and cooling effect.. on top of there, i saw Anita Mui's tablets.. so many flowers and offering..
then at nite we went to Victoria Peak for night viewing of Hong Kong.. really beautiful and so bright! when i upload my photos at home.. i can show it here.. yeahz!

now is 3rd day, later we going to New Territories area, the Che Kung temple to turn our luck and Wong Tai Sin temple for good luck. then shopping @ Nathan Road.. and evening, shall be Avenue of Stars.. another day of walking and walking.. haha..

shall end here 1st.. yeahz!

inspiring movie - "Coach Carter"

3 blogs on 1 single day.. ha.. anyway, juz wanna share a nice movie i watched on friday.

1st time i went to watch the movie on my own.. nv tried before.. quite nice ohh.. cos maybe is becos i chose a good movie. movie title is Coach Carter. it is a real life story abt basketball. a sport which i really enjoy watching and playing with frens.

i saw the passion of basketball and the desire to play basketball and yet maintaining everyting in life in contact. not giving up tis and tat becos i wan to become tat and tis. many pple give up studies to become a good sports player. but in tis show, i realise being a sports player, u can be a good student too! is no longer a dream and hope.. is real.. pple did it before! indeed really inspiring for pple around ohh.. *not me lah.. i am not a sportswoman lor..* haha..

but still it brought out the passion in me to play sports again. used to played netball in sch and basketball with frens. for almost 5 yrs nv really do all these again. how i wish i can get back to all these... will wanna try to go for one of it in Aust when i study in UQ. wanna try out the netball there if any.. i noe Aust netball r good and i can't be as good as there.. still hope i can play. out of leisure.. i like the feeling of playing and enjoying the games with my teammates and the cheers around.. i wanna have tat feeling again.. hopefully i can!

but before tat need train up stamina lah.. aiyo.. so long nv train liao.. cannot make it now lor.. *haha..* mmm... can i do it? maybe in half a yr time, i will post a blog to say if i did join a sport..

i am NOT defeated yet!

lately i seems to have discover a lot of problems and shortcomings abt myself.. really dunno wan myself to be like tis ah.. i noe it is inevitable tat pple have bad points but i really dun wan myself to have all these.. petty, paranoid, unreasonable, demanding and short temper...

i get irritated easily lately and losing temper at pple around me and myself very often. tat day, i was so irritated by my own attitude tat i actualy throw my temper at my grandma when she was reminding me abt someting out of goodwill.. i shouted at her not to keep nagging.. i was so angry abt myself and regretted my actions so much.. i really din noe y i shouted at her.. and i din mean it.. i shld have told her nicely tat i will do it. i really really regretted. and tis few days, i juz kept myself in the room doing my tings. i noe how lonely grandma felt when she is sick now, cannot go out. only left me can tok to her and yet i locked myself in the room. but i juz worry i tok to her more, i can't control and lose my temper again. i realy hate myself being like tis.. so rude to my grandma.. telling myself over and over again to control and cannot like tis but yet i juz can't hold back.. i noe grandma will not hear tis but i juz to say "grandma, i am really really SORRY.. dui bu qi"

juz cannot seems to get myself to speak to pple nicely and be less annoying lor.. i noe i can't carry on like tis.. cos if i became a person who juz flare up easily, i will surely face problem wherever i go in future. getting more narrow minded is someting tat i feel tat i am really have problem with.. dunno y.. juz feel tat living in a world with only me and me.. no longer the old WS where i will tink in a general picture. now is really a world me Me and Me only! dun like tis.. really dun like.. i noe i am a petty girl all along but i noe i had been within limits all these while.. juz tat nowadays, i am getting out of hand... getting petty over minor small tings easily and making a fuss over unnecessary tings.. y? y am i like tis?

i really hate to admit but i realise all my short comings r really getting more and more where i feel like strangling myself at times liao.. i am running from reality by not admitting it though i noe it is getting serious.. NOW i can no longer run away from it. it is obvious when i am full of tinking where i din used to have it, actions where i dun usually do. i wan to save myself before tings get out of hand. i wan to be the old WS where i used to be.. can i? can i get tat WS back?

wat muz i do? izzit becos i locked myself at home all these while so develop such an undesirable character? so self centered and unreasonable... it had not been part of me when i was in the past.. y is all these happening now when i am going to study in Aust in 2 mths time? i wan to spend my remanining time happily with my grandma, parents and family and frens but can i do it? can i change my attitude towards pple? in the past, i can say i can.. now i start to doubt my ability and confidence.

i MUST do someting.. really.. i dun wan to become such an idiot for rest of my life.. i dun wan to be hated by pple.. i dun wan! i dun wan! i muz cool down.. i muz organise my tots and ask myself wat i wan.. i shall not be defeated so easily.. cannot say "i admit defeat" when i can still save myself.. cannot! use tis chance to go overseas and relax my mind 1st. try to calm my inner feelings and have a clearer mind hopefully will allow me a greater room to tink. i wan to be like the past and in fact be better. i dun wan to shout at pple around me, i dun wan get so unreasonable.. can i do it? YES! i can and i MUST! 2 mths.. 2 mths to going overseas.. 2 mths to Aust study.. i will and i MUST do it! in these 2 mths, i muz cool myself down be it inner or outer... if not, for my rest of the life, i will fail as a person, as a granddaughter, as a daughter, as a sister, as a niece, as a cousin, as a fren...

no one can help me.. even if i tell my frens all these, i noe none can help me cos tis is my life, my own character, my own tinking. if i dun help myself, how am i going to walk out of tis undesirable moment in life? i still rem Adam Khoo's teachings... 100% participation and failure is feedback. i noe i failed and i muz use all these as feedbacks and i wan a 100% participation of myself in tis moment of character modifying and moulding period! i noe i can.. confidence level is low now.. but i noe i can do it cos i am NOT defeated yet!

my Hong Kong trip! yeahz!

yeah! now is 1 May liao.. tml, 2 May i am going to Hong Kong with my frens! a trip tat i had been planning and looking forward to since last yr.. finally is going to be here soon!!! yeah... though gonna be real broke after the trip where the amount in my bank account get less everyday.. really dunno how liao... very broke ah.. haiz.. but dun tink abt tat 1st, enjoy my trip since i paid for it liao! yeahz!