strive of earthquake!!! --- be contented in life...

juz last nite, an earthquake measuring abt 8.5 ritcher scale strike North Sumatra in Indonesia. scary sia... news report said some hundred pple r affected by it. tsunami warning had been sent to the pple in countries like thailand, india, sri lanka, malaysia.. to pre warn pple as to avoid a major disaster such as the major tsunami tat struck us last dec, in the Indian Ocean. may god bless tat tis incident wun lead to another major tsunami disaster.

though spore is not in the earthquake region, we can still feel the mild tremors. i feel it too! is juz a split second and i feel a very mild one... i tot it was myself who was shaking and din take note of it.. when i saw the news last nite, then i realise y i am shaking. is juz some mild tremors though...

natural disasters r juz so unpredictable. it can juz strike as and when. and we r often unaware of it beforehand. and the damages brought abt by all these natural disasters r beyond our expectation. lives are lost, pple are left wounded, homes are damaged. damages are everywhere, physically and mentally. whenever i looked at the news reporting damages scenes at affected area, i feel so upset for them. how i wish i could do something for them! i oso thank god for letting me and my family be away from these disasters area. spore is small but we are at least free from all these. we do not need to wake up late at nite, bringing our valuables and belonging to move to a safer area to avoid disasters. we do not need to hide under the table. aren't we lucky? indeed we r very lucky as compared to million of pple in the world.

i dun wan to be rich and clever. all i asked for is to safe and healthy. if u ask me to choose, i rather remain poor forever with all my family and frens, rather than rich and lonely. one muz learn to contented with life. esp when tings can juz happen without us preparing it. tis is how vulnerable life is...muz treasure...

"i juz wan to be myself!"

ever wonder y some pple feel so pressurize in doing many things? do u have such feelings before? act i believe all of us have such feelings before... juz like my title says, " i juz wan to be myself!" when we r young children, we r living in our parents' shadows, doing alot of things which our parents wan us to do. sometimes it may be the things we hate most... but no choice, juz got to do. when we grow up, we maybe living in our frens' shadows, doing things juz becos of peer influence and following fashion. how many pple can really juz be themselves? well, in reality is really hard... haiz...

i used to give myself a lot of pressure when i do things. i used to tink tat whatever i do, i need account to pple. it is as if i am living for pple... do things to pleased them and nv really do things for myself. it is really very tiring when u wan to live for pple, do for pple and make pple pleased. when i fail, i feel very very upset and pple will juz pin point u tis and tat, totally ignoring ur sadness... sometimes, is juz not worth all the effort. in the past, i always live in pple's words, pple's comments and pple's actions. soon.. i get so so tired tat i start to tink y am i doing all these? can't i be myself and live for myself?

i tried to let go of alot of tings, not so persistence in doing all the things pple like. i still like to make pple happy but i noe i shld not do it at the expense of my own life. cos when pple is happy, i shld feel happy too. cannot be pple happy and i am not happy, rite? true happiness shld be everyone feel for it and benefits from it. i wan to make pple happy and i am happy too! i am still learning to be myself and live my own life. funny, rite? live for 21yrs liao.. still learning abt it, haha... well, life is still full of interesting lessons. i am finishing my lessons slowly. now i am learning to live a happy life in order to bring it to as many pple around me as possible. though at times, i still have to accept the fact tat in life, there r still tings u need to care for how pple will feel and account to them. for instance, to my parents and family... to my frens...

i am learning to be myself in my own life, my own way and at the same time not forgetting abt my responsiblities and promises..

~ my 1st blog ~

yoz! 1st blog for the newly created blogger that i set up days ago... nv tot i would set up one as i feel rather uneasy writing my things here. but still decide to give it a try as like wat my fren say, is a good way of letting out my feelings and tots for certain things...

din actually noe how to start off. when i saw my frens' blogger, they will usually list down wat they have done.. some will share their feelings abt some issues.. frankly speaking, i am not a person who can write well in expressin myself.. (slightly better off using my mouth lah... haha) i have a diary with me and whenever i have things to share or note down, i will write it down... now maybe i need make it an online diary.. whether pple have the time or patience to read, is ok... juz like a channel for me to let out my tots and feelings is more impt...

another ting is becos i am going to australia... haiz~~~ come to tis, worries start to come up.. going alone in jul to brisbane for my uni studies.. in an totally unfamiliar country, who wun be worry leh? but i noe i have to face it no matter wat.. when i tell pple i am ok, i will be fine.. i am trying to make myself really believe i am ok.. cos the more i tell pple how worried i am, how afraid i am, i will not be able to overcome it. life is full of challenges... tis shall b 1 of the challenges tat i will have to overcome and learn from! way to go, Iris!

had so much to share but dunno how to note down... maybe slowly when my mind organise the tots, i will note it down here... tat shall explain my blogger name: "my heart, my mind, my soul". my heart is to feel... my mind is to tink and organise... my soul is here to write it down...

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