i shld be feeling happy and excited today for i am expecting Jasmin's arrival into Brisbane. i shld be feeling nervous today as one of my assignment for my summer class is due today. however, on top of all these feelings, i had one more feeling. i am feeling sad. sad cos another fren from uni had gone home today. bidding goodbye is always so so hard and those overwhelming effect of sadness will juz keep on invading the mind. half a yr ago, i said Goodbye to my 2 dearest buddies in UQ, Huiying & Tess. even when i noe there may be chance to meet up back home, the feeling is just so so different. from day one when i bid those frens who graduate and went home, i know very well abt tis fact. today is another round of tormenting bidding goodbye.
i guess the difference in bidding goodbye after uni studies here and bidding goodbye after studies back home is tat we all noe for the fact tat experiences we had here will not be the same feel as when we meet back home. tat is the most hurting part. for a sudden moment, i felt rather lost. cos tis cycle of bidding goodbye is not going to end here. i already prepared myself tat in tis summer, there will be 2 such sad moments. indeed, i was unable to hold back my sadness and i teared today. in abt 3 weeks time, i guess is the same again. i juz hate these moments. i hate saying goodbye but all these r part and parcel of life.. is juz unavoidable. and often is always the one who is being "left behind" will feel all these sadness the most.
i guess i juz have to pick myself up after all sadness. cos life still goes on.. :D need to get ready to pick jas up now.
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